OF PEAKS & EDGES

Well here's the thing, it's not important now to absolutely know what people like, love or want in life. With what you want, a person can always work around it, Chungking Express taught us that it's not essential to know what people want. They want pineapples today. Tomorrow they want something else.

With what you don't like, you are convinced, committed and absolutely thorough with it. I used to be asked "is that what you want?" I used to answer: “I know what I want” but I didn't say exactly what I want. I just know that I can't be on it a hundred percent cause it doesn't feel right.

Do I want to share that most intimate aspect of me with the person I care most about? I do. But do I want that judged and forsaken. I don't. So to me, it meant, I don't really want to share the most intimate aspect of me because eventually it would hurt me.

Maybe I have learned now to befriend what I really, truly hate in the world. I've learned to understand it and be at peace with it. When I keep the enemy close, I know when to kill it and when to get rid of it. But the more I chase what I want; the more I realize and comprehend the things that I don't love or like.

We all grow up being told to know what we want. We know that without even realizing it. Maybe we should all grow up knowing and exploring things that we don't really like. This way one wouldn't get work out a compromise. Compromise is vicious and it blurs that line between loving and hating.